Yes... I lost my way, my sense of direction...and the mark for me to reach was just too far away; I gave up again and again... I often muttered to myself, "Well, such is just the way of life..." and found that I had accepted it to be so.  I've realized many things for the first time since I became alone once more.

I see all too clearly that I've terribly made one mistake after another, in this path of my life.  But I've lived so as not to regret my deeds, though I can't say it has always been so with me.  If I could meet myself from those days now, I'd say not to feel uneasy about the future; it will surely work out.  It's true what they say, that creation can only come after destruction, and so it has.

I wonder... how was I seen from your eyes, hidden behind that mask, from where you stood that day?  Even now I can still recall so vividly how the wind struck my cheeks and made me feel that this was indeed reality.  It woke every fiber of my soul; whispering softly to me, that this is not an illusion at all!
  
Deep within your heart, you actually had been crying for a while at one time, hadn't you?  But you were hiding it, I wonder if that part of you has changed...  You were smiling at the moment we could first meet, weren't you?  To be strong with all your might, I'm sure it was your sweet lie, the mask you chose to don before me, as I also chose one to hide behind.

If you have a pain that's hard get past, shall we share it and walk on together?  Should we encounter a pleasure too big for just one of us, can we share that as well?  Yes, you and I are quite different, in the pace at which we walk in our lives, and the scenery viewed in our memories; how we express the deepest of our thoughts.  It seems like you would find a beautiful flower at a place where I would have just felt despair.  I was taught by you one night, that everything happens necessarily, not casually or coincidentally.

And now I suddenly find myself in fear...what sort of excuse should I make for this wave of ...pain?  It seems the more I wish to be strong, the weaker my heart becomes, in embarrassingly inverted proportions. Even if you need me just a little bit, I hope I can still remain at your side... you'd allow me to, wouldn't you?  Even if you show me only a little smile, it means I am not worthless to you, right?  Then I'll be able to do anything for that smile...it's one of my most precious treasures.  

I once had thought that trusting someone results in being betrayed and rejected some day; it is a safe way to live one's life.  I can't return to where I once was, I won't let myself go back, really, I couldn't if I wanted to.  However often I may look back, I can't alter these footprints I see behind me... not even if I were to try to reshape them to look more beautiful than they really are.  

I don't really say, "show me your true colors", or some other over-spoken phrase like that, but I'm confident about accepting you, whatever color I may see... Please, let's laugh away any of our past days we once had, that were filled with false things, before it's too late!

Now, let's stand up without fear, and for the benefit of no one but one another...with our own hands, we will tear off these masks, and reveal our true selves to no one but each other.

              ～是真的。。。是对了。。。我爱你～